Thank god i have you in handy, right now im on bed crying alone in the dark, it has been tough on me lately. I thought the more you think youre strong, the more you will be personally, but im wrg just wrg.. Its sad, depressing knowing a dream that ive always wished will never come true though theres a saying never say never, but thats too impossible..i always hoped a miracle would happen, but nothing seems come out frm it, only my heart seems to get broken frm it. I know, i better let it go before it gets harder though reality is its already am.. I dont want him to go against someone who has done so much for him.. This is hard, but i knw ive to made sacrifices like i always do.. The other thing is.. I got my answer now, im just badly torn but its alright im just used to these pain.. Maybe, i wasnt meant to be loved at all.. I was meant to be alone all my life.