Dear blog,

its been awhile since ive wanted to update you but life has been busy, and i always tell myself that im gonna do this another day. Thank god that ive made my own time for this now. Sigh, you know blog, im kinda down now, i dont know why, but this feeling i sure know what. Its a feeling of insecure, jealousy, sad and everything else. Have i told you that most people around me are getting engaged? Yeah, diyana, my collegue, my cousin, seems like everyone i know is doing so. Im jealous, jealous because i know that my rship will never get far to that stage, and its kinda sad, knowing that you'll never get there as much as you wished to. Omg, i feel like crying now. Im so unlucky, really i am. I wish i could let it all out here, but just let me keep this to myself. Its like things always have been hard on me, ive been nice to others, putting them above me but yet..and again this is all i get. Idn, im just tired for now. I dont know who i want to run to, except you. )':