Ive been wanting to update this dusty blog of mine, but i don't knw why i keep delaying, perhaps i couldn't find beautiful words to summarise what i feel, maybe i also didnt want to express all my thoughts and feelings, but i have to, i gotta too, because this feeling is unbearable anymore. Dear blog, you're the only one who would listen to my disappoinments, and i really thank you for letting me rant here. At times, i'm really angry at ALLAH, but how could i be angry at my own creator? People have been saying that he knows the best for his own creation and that everything will be fine in the end, but what if it doesn't? How long, yes how long i must endure this patchy journey road of mine before i finally taste and smell happiness? Ive been hurt so many times, and how can you expect me to be strong every each fall that i face? Even when im typing now, i can feel the pain piercing through me. :'( i don't feel like telling you the whole story, its just that let me say that all my loved ones has alr bring me down.