People People, its thursday today and this means 7 days from now, i will be at buru..BUT BUT, my pay has not arrived yet and im afraid its gonna received late, i need it so badly lerrr. I need to do my shopping, put aside for my bills and also for many things! Gosh im getting sugar rush here thinking i would be breathing in the same air, with.. Hehe! Please, let this be a worthwhile trip can? Apart from that, work has been a bit hectic from me, like seriously. I need to get my ass from there soon lah. Okay shall not spoil the ambience here..Well oh well, what shall i say bout today, like finally..finally ke? Idn, lah but i guess things are trying to be ok, idn? Ive been trying to live and learn to accept that i hurt maman, and i should really let him do whatever he tries to do like feed me with words that are very much hurting to listen, well i deserve this don't i? I hurt him too much in the first place. I knew it, that he would still look at my fs and tumblr and i should have not deactivate or try to change my tumblr link, so i can prove to him too that i can "move on" without him, chit! He was the one who told me, he dont want to bother me anymore because he got so many girls now who wants him, but i know..deep down he is just trying to be mean at me. 2 days straight he has been trying to start a conv even in a rude way, and i know those all fs ques are from him, so what i did was to show him that im enjoying my life now and pretend that he does not even appear in my mind at all. So he was being mean, and he told me that because of me, he's not the same person he used to be. I knw, i can see that. Does this man here really loves me? I wonder.. If i give you my heart, would you ever hurt me?