I'm sad and down just because i never and gonna have or own a better soulmate to love and treat me right just the way i deserve to be. I know, and by right, every girls should be loved and cherished, not the other way round where girls like me usually get cheated, lied or hurt by the one they loved the most. As i was walking back to home and thinking back all the r'ships i had, i can't help but teared to think that all the hard effort that i've put is all gone to waste and never appreciate, i mean when can i be loved like how i would loved someone? I wonder, wonder if there's someone out there who's made especially for me, you know kinda like a soulmate? I mean, where he is now? Is he thinking of me like how am i thinking bout his whereabout, whether i already met him or not, whether he's feeling sucky and alone or enjoying some girl's accompany? Why is he taking a longer time to get here, sigh.

I'm tired mentally and emotionally, many things has put to a waste for all the rships that ive been in. I deserve someone better, someone who really thinks im his world. But, would someone do that for me? Idn. I just want to be happy this time, really. I just want to feel appreciated after so long being all in a never ending sour rships for the rest of my nearly 22 years. You know, when i love someone, i really love someone. I give my best to be the best gf that i could ever been, but sadly enough, no one wants really like that kind of gf nowadays it seems. Guys get bored some times, and that what scares me. If really my parents made it to haj this year, i would want them to pray for me to get a good soulmate for me, amin.

So where are you my blurry soulmate, please signal me if you're already here, or not please be here very fast cause your dear princess is tired going through kissing all the ugly frogs.

Buru, in 2 days and hearing who's not there is really putting my hopes down. Just be there, i need you to be there please. Please Allah make it happen for me, shouldn't i deserve this happy time for awhile?