Omg, i'm so freaking tired! Well oh well what shall i rant about today. It has been 2 days since i've worked and now i know what it means when people say they are tired and as well the reason why they are easily irritated and cranky! I have not tell you yet didn't i that i took clinical asst instead of admin because the pay is much more higher, so might as well i grab the higher one, i mean who does not want that? I am stationed at Simei and thank god it's easy for me as i just need to take MRT to and fro and it's like one stop but the only thing is MRT in the morning is like being in a tunnel stuffed with kiasu people! Grr, i hate that like seriously!! Well, first day was quite okay and thank god the one supervise me was a Kakak! She's nice thankfully! There's so much to learn on day one and it's very hard because everything needs to be done as fast as possible and there's many medicine to dispense and etc! Unlike my usual family clinic, everything has been done except registering, biling or maybe looking for medicines that was given by the doctors to the people who see the doctor, but this one, you need to register at the same time give queue number and even take temp. For those under company, you have to find files and key whatever lah to the computer and it's much hassle, but i just keep my mouth shut eventhough it gets on my nerves sometimes when i needed to rush several things, it's like your brain and your nerves is very stressed because you need to do everything at the same time! Well, i got this chinese collegue, not being racist lah basically but then..OMG everytime i'm with her, i try so hard to breathe hoping that i would not flare and just punch her in the face! & oh yeah at times, i have to paste labels on plastic cover of the medicines and find bunch of tablets or syrups that you HAVE TO MIX YOURSELF infront and behind you and that is not easy okay i tell you! I always have migrane whenever i look at them, hahah! Everyone there is chinese, and i like the 2nd doctor better because the first one mcm anti social je..the 2nd one is very friendly, handsome plak tu, heeh! & as for malay there is 3 of us, and one of them looks like a minah, and when i saw her the first time, i was like oh no, trouble maybe? But then, it's far from what i thought as she is very very nice and soft spoken, maybe it's true that don't judge the book by its cover. Well as for today, i did dispense like giving the sick people medicine, registering and also closing as well as cari2 ubat, 2nd day is a lil bit better then the 1st one! I'm not sure if i really enjoy working there, because it really tires me the hell out of me physically and mentally..but i have to hold on and just see, maybe it would be different as i'm still new to this environment. EVeryday i tell myself, that NOTHING, will get into my way of being success. I hope, i would be better at whatever i'm doing right now.. Actually i'm quite proud of myself, seriously i don't see myself getting here or this far. I know myself, i'm someone who is shy and afraid to do something that i think im not up to. But, life has made me tough, go strong. I need to change, for the better and i think i already did. So a pat on my shoulder, as for now, i will just slog my guts out even if it really tires me out seeing all those junk medicines around me, i will get my ass out there as soon as i could, and find something that is really my passion and hopefully a teacher. :) Other than that, i'm glad that my other sister has also get a job and starting this Monday. But i'm kinda sad now to see the kinship going on my family right now cos im aware that some of us are not talking to one another because of different issues..What's happening seriously to all these things called Family? I don't know, but i hope..one day everything will be better again..Adios amigos.