No one probably knows how much i wanna cry right now. They probably don't know that i am having a hard time right now, sigh. But yes, i want to cry my eyes out so much, but i am too tired to do so, because i have been crying now and then lately. It's not a sign of weakness though, it's just letting out things that i can't seem to utter out to anyone because no one, seriously understand the pain that i have to endure. Each day, day by day i tried so hard to ignore all these pains and use sleep as an excuse to cure these torment, but they don't work on me. I don't really know what can cure me, but i am a gone case and i know it seriously. I need help, i need strength, i need anything that can help me, but i don't know who i have to seek. The thing is, at this point it seems i can't trust anyone anymore and sadly not even me and this sounds so scary. I'm all alone going through this struggle and it's very difficult for me as i'm not strong enough to stand up on my both feet. I'm done with life. I really do.