This is me, yes. The girl that who appears to be strong, brave and funny or happy, is isn't what you think at all. Infact she's everything the opposite, that you might think about her. No, i'm not being pessimistic but this is true, as all she know is, just to put a show infront of her loved ones. Maybe she does that because she does not want to worry them, or she don't want others to be in the same plight as her, but that's her, that's truly her. She has been trying her hardest to find happiness for herself, but yet again and again she finds herself stuck in a hole. She tried so hard to make a good impression, so others would like her, but all she gets in return is hatred. Why, why does no one learn to know a person thoroughly before they make a judgement on someone? Why is that whenever i do something right, no one acknowledge or remember, but when i did something wrong, it's unforgettable? Why? and why, why must my life be so difficult like these? It is like trying to keep your head high in a strong current of sea trying to pull you down. I have so many setbacks in my life and i really wished it could stop. It is really doing me harm, i become less and less confident and sad to say, i realised i have a very low esteem. Sometimes to the extreme that i don't like to see myself at all in the mirror because i find the girl in the mirror so ugly and pitiful. Am i too nice and forgiving that i'm taken for granted as always? But how am i supposed to be selfish when me myself, want the best for others, not for me? Why am i always being label as bad, when i myself know that i'm not near to that at all. I don't club, I don't drink and most importantly, i don't sleep around, so in what way i'm bad? I wish, anyone could speak up for me, but who is willingly to take that? I'm sorry that at times, i blame GOD for putting me like this. I don't always understand, why he has to made my life so bad. I know that he cares and he believe that i could go through this ordeal because i'm strong but, if you put me through this everytime, how am i supposed to be strong? sometimes, i really wished ryan could tell everyone that those who spoke ill bout me that how nice i am, but that's nothing close to reality cos he is still a kid. It's okay isn't it? As long as i know, how nice i am and how true i am to everything that i'm doing right? I just wished that GOD would grant me these simple wish of mine, i just want to be liked, love and be accepted, that's all.