Changes, don't you hate changes? Well, i do. I am not someone who can keep up with changes, and if can, i would love everything to stay the same. I am not someone who let go things easily and so most of the time i find it difficult to keep up with changes. But like they say, time no waits for no man. I'm very down right now and maybe a bit of lonely too. Locking myself in my room, and thinking back on the times that i have went through. 22 years of life and i'm already sick of it? Well, that's bad but it's true. In the process of growing up, I've learnt, seen and loss some the best part of it and that is very sad for me, like i say..i am not good at coping losses..

Being close to one another is a blessing and I know, not all humans are blessed to have family that are complete and that's why i say, i am very blessed to have my parents, my sisters, my small siblings, my bro-in-law and my nephew. They may not know these, but they have been my source of strength and i always looked up to them no matter how much i want to compete them in everything. I love them dearly and losing one of them is the last thing that i would want to imagine. I always loved the bond that we share..I remember we would do things together like watch kuda kepang, or movie marathons together and along would do the cooking for us. We would stay up late night during raya to make kuih and get stress up together. Whenever it is sunday, we would gather on our kitchen table to eat, because it may be the only time where we can get together, and we would talk and talk for hours. But apart from that, we even fight, cry, bitch ard and ignore one another but we know it would not last any longer. I remember telling my cousin how hard it will be to see my elder sister getting married and knowing that she won't be sleeping on the couch whenever i'm back from school or getting up early in the morning being mad at her, cos she's infront of the fan drying up her hair, but life has to move on and so has she. But let just say, everyone of us is getting older and everyone is now busy with their own life and each one of us is changing and i'm sorry to say but i hate it. Even now, i find it hard to be on the same page with amira, there's always things that we can never see eye to eye and this is scary because i don't want we to hate each one another and so i really wish blood is thicker than water..