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November 7, 2010 / 4:50 AM
Opps did i like post two times today? Heehe, wellohwell, i just need something to let off from my chest. I just went to suhaimi's profile and was SHOCKED to see his dp,because it's a picture of me and him. Guys are weird, i guess that is how Venus and Mars came about right? Look above, suhaimi, idn if you remember this but do you remember, i used to draw this once in a letter that i used to give to you? Because this is what i thought our future would be, falling in love together, than get married, have kids, and get old together, but i forgot once again, kita hanya merancang, tetapi tuhan yang menentukan.Sometimes, i tried to figure you out, but i just can't. You seem always to do the opp. then what you say/do and i find it hard. I don't get it where guys hurt their gfs, and still can put up pictures of them together. What's the use, im hurt, im still terriblyyyyy hurt. I just don't know what feelings that i'm carrying for here. Yesterday, i was bored and i missed you, its been days since i held your bouquet of flowers that youve given me, your balloon has been my punching bag when i am reminded of what you did to me. I took all that to my bed, and went to look for your love letters that you gave to me long way before. I read it to the flowers, and i was telling the flowers that you used to be a nice guy, a really nice guy. Without me realising, a tear drop from my eyes. I looked at the dead flowers, just like how our love died. I keep touching it, telling it i was sorry that they have been the victim of what happened. I touched the big balloon and hug it, and i was reminded of the way he suprised me with it, i looked at his picture in my hp, yes the pic of him kissing the balloon and again i cried. I lied down and closed my eyes, and suddenly i was bombard with flashback of the old him, the old him which i used to really love and like. I remember him coming to my house, just to pass $30 to my maid for my duit skola cos i told him mummy dont give me enough money, i remember i was shocked when bakyu tuti came to me and say, "Aini, suhaimi kasi ni kat bakyu terus pergi." I was stumped, i ran out and wanted to run after you but i just saw you walking so fast from me. No one, ever did that to me. No one. The next one is i remember, you were holding a wax flower and i was curious who is it for, and you told me it's especially for me, i smiled because you did something, something that i don't ask for, and that's a plus. You brought it from hm and you didnt put it in your beg because you're afraid it would be destroy and you carried all the way from home to sch and to my house. Remember, i ever told you? That none of my exs did something like play the toy machine to get a toy for me, you tried and you failed 3 times. You spend $2 each, and i keep telling you, that you dont have too, but you say you'll for me, and it was the only money that you had and left with, but in the end, you got it, remember how happy we are that everyone was like looking at us because they tried but couldnt do? But the most most i love is, when i used to fight with you, you would come here and talk things with me. I just missed that, i really do. You don't do these no more, just no more. Maybe, i've been bad towards you too. Ive been saying mean stuff that could really hurt your ego. But you know, i don't mean it. I really love the way you are, if i dont i wouldnt make you as a part of my life in the first place, but i did. I love for who you are really. Other girls would want someone who have vehicles on their own, but i don't mind, im willing to ride as many transport as i can, as long im with you. Im willing to go on a cheapskate date,where we would be cooking for our own date, im willing to be going out with you, hold hands with you and maybe say it out to others that the boy standing next to me is my boyf, even if you were dress poorly. I'm more speechless, when i got to know that your mom said that you would really like to join back sch because you want to be the same level as me. Maybe what happened, is our own individual fault that causes much to this beautiful r'ship, but i just don't know how to safe it anymore. I've tried so many means and ways, but it always seem to be crumbling down. I cannot be like other girls, who can ignore when their bf cheats on them and pretend that it does not happen. The thing is, i know you too well, i know how you move, how you say, how you write, everything. That is why, you always fail to lie to me, cos i always caught you. Im really hurt, and you have no idea right that how much hurt i am. I just need you to let yourself realise, that there's no other girls who would love you as much as i do. Maybe not now, but later you'll see what i mean. Yes you will, believe me. 
Opps did i like post two times today? Heehe, wellohwell, i just need something to let off from my chest. I just went to suhaimi's profile and was SHOCKED to see his dp,because it's a picture of me and him. Guys are weird, i guess that is how Venus and Mars came about right? Look above, suhaimi, idn if you remember this but do you remember, i used to draw this once in a letter that i used to give to you? Because this is what i thought our future would be, falling in love together, than get married, have kids, and get old together, but i forgot once again, kita hanya merancang, tetapi tuhan yang menentukan.Sometimes, i tried to figure you out, but i just can't. You seem always to do the opp. then what you say/do and i find it hard. I don't get it where guys hurt their gfs, and still can put up pictures of them together. What's the use, im hurt, im still terriblyyyyy hurt. I just don't know what feelings that i'm carrying for here. Yesterday, i was bored and i missed you, its been days since i held your bouquet of flowers that youve given me, your balloon has been my punching bag when i am reminded of what you did to me. I took all that to my bed, and went to look for your love letters that you gave to me long way before. I read it to the flowers, and i was telling the flowers that you used to be a nice guy, a really nice guy. Without me realising, a tear drop from my eyes. I looked at the dead flowers, just like how our love died. I keep touching it, telling it i was sorry that they have been the victim of what happened. I touched the big balloon and hug it, and i was reminded of the way he suprised me with it, i looked at his picture in my hp, yes the pic of him kissing the balloon and again i cried. I lied down and closed my eyes, and suddenly i was bombard with flashback of the old him, the old him which i used to really love and like. I remember him coming to my house, just to pass $30 to my maid for my duit skola cos i told him mummy dont give me enough money, i remember i was shocked when bakyu tuti came to me and say, "Aini, suhaimi kasi ni kat bakyu terus pergi." I was stumped, i ran out and wanted to run after you but i just saw you walking so fast from me. No one, ever did that to me. No one. The next one is i remember, you were holding a wax flower and i was curious who is it for, and you told me it's especially for me, i smiled because you did something, something that i don't ask for, and that's a plus. You brought it from hm and you didnt put it in your beg because you're afraid it would be destroy and you carried all the way from home to sch and to my house. Remember, i ever told you? That none of my exs did something like play the toy machine to get a toy for me, you tried and you failed 3 times. You spend $2 each, and i keep telling you, that you dont have too, but you say you'll for me, and it was the only money that you had and left with, but in the end, you got it, remember how happy we are that everyone was like looking at us because they tried but couldnt do? But the most most i love is, when i used to fight with you, you would come here and talk things with me. I just missed that, i really do. You don't do these no more, just no more. Maybe, i've been bad towards you too. Ive been saying mean stuff that could really hurt your ego. But you know, i don't mean it. I really love the way you are, if i dont i wouldnt make you as a part of my life in the first place, but i did. I love for who you are really. Other girls would want someone who have vehicles on their own, but i don't mind, im willing to ride as many transport as i can, as long im with you. Im willing to go on a cheapskate date,where we would be cooking for our own date, im willing to be going out with you, hold hands with you and maybe say it out to others that the boy standing next to me is my boyf, even if you were dress poorly. I'm more speechless, when i got to know that your mom said that you would really like to join back sch because you want to be the same level as me. Maybe what happened, is our own individual fault that causes much to this beautiful r'ship, but i just don't know how to safe it anymore. I've tried so many means and ways, but it always seem to be crumbling down. I cannot be like other girls, who can ignore when their bf cheats on them and pretend that it does not happen. The thing is, i know you too well, i know how you move, how you say, how you write, everything. That is why, you always fail to lie to me, cos i always caught you. Im really hurt, and you have no idea right that how much hurt i am. I just need you to let yourself realise, that there's no other girls who would love you as much as i do. Maybe not now, but later you'll see what i mean. Yes you will, believe me.