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November 15, 2010 / 3:09 AM
No, no. This blog ain't dead yet, it is just that i am busy these few past days. Yes, keeping myself busy to distract any unwanted aching feelings. Well, there's so much to say and idn where to start,but i hope i get all my stories across somehow. Well, firstly my life has been hectic. There's so much things that are happening in my life, and ive been trying to commit myself to pray. Alhamdullilah, i feel so much better being a step closer to GOD. All these while, i thought GOD was being unfair to me, and i guess that's why he gave me such hard situation to remind me, to be close to him. I did, and i realised from there, that he has been there all along, for me. It is just that i neglected him. You don't know what difference he has made for me, but i think, i've learn to be alot calmer. :') I wish, i could tell you everything, but i can't cause somethings aren't meant for strangers like you to knw. Well oh well, actually i've been wanting so much to blog these few days back. I realised something, doesn't mean when someone is disabled, nothing about them is perfect. Let's take blind people for example, and i'm sorry for mentioning bout this, but i think this is a perfect example, and to any party involve, i hope you don't bear grudges. Well, do you know that people are blind are those who can actually see, and those who can are actually blind? Why is because to my perspective, those who can't see, they depend on other senses to see something, like touch, hear or feel. In my situation, of course not to the extent of smelling or tasting, hee that would sound funny right? Well, lately my mom's old friend has been trying to forge a closer relationship with me and amira, idn what's her purpose but i hope it's something gd. She can't really see, and i really pity her, that's why amira and i have been trying to accompany her whenever we can. We've meet quite a few times, but the last trip, let's just say we grew much closer. Sometimes i asked myself, how would she know if we are really good? Doesn't mean we are her best friend's daughter, does not mean we are good. Amira and i both agree, that we are humans who makes mistakes. But how bad/wild or whatever term you wanna use on us, one thing that we always know, we respect our family, my grandparents and especially my parents that we ain't gonna do things that would these loved ones ashamed of. But people who doesnt really noe us, seem to think the opp way. Maybe of the appearance, maybe of the way we carry ourself, but if you really know us, you'll know what kind of person we are. Well, there's no one who knows you better than yourself. Idn bout mira, but i always put my loved ones before me, to me their happiness is impt then mine, which idn why? But maybe half of my life, ive been getting hurtful remarks which i dnt wish to mention here, :( I often asked myself, why people tend to judge me, do they know me? But i cant stop people from saying bad things bout me, that's human isn't it? Sedangkan di mata tuhan, semua manusia sama saja di matanya even if you're someone big or not, you're just the same. No one is better or not, everyone is equal, i just wished they take time to know me, and love me for who i am. Well, my mom's friend did. At first i thought, she was just trying to get us in our gd books, but then what i heard, really touches me. "I may not see, but i can feel your warmth, your kindness, your touch,your vibe. You both are different, i don't see, but i can feel it with my heart." That is how a blind people judge, they uses their heart, their senses. But those who are gifted, who can really see, what they use? They uses their eyes only. Have you ever heard, do not judge the book by its cover? I guess some people don't yeah? The reason, why i blogged bout this, is because i find people who can really see, is just blind. Well,certain people that i knw lah kn?Idn bout you strangers. So today main point is, close your eyes, and see with your heart, and you'll see and you'll know.
