Yawn! Erm, quite tired today yea? Well, this term is ending soon like in a few days time, wee~ and i seriously dont know what im gonna do after this. I know, WORK! my dad especially been bugging me to do so. I really want to, but i just don't know what i want to work as. I really really really want to do something that i really adore, yes teaching pre-sch! But many people told me the cons of it, bleargh! But i also have to think carefully, jaga ryan SATU je takleh terjaga, apa pula double,triple of ryan? Botak juga aku, heehs. I also thought of taking language course like mandarin, but berbaloi ke? Ish, susah juga kn? Heeh,tu semua kebelakang, now focus the present. Well ryan came over just now, and we had alot of fun, we did some running, woots berpeloh mcm oinkoink! He was just excited being at the fitness corner, bath him and again he bathed me too, heeh! I super duper love Ryan Isk. AND peliknya, my charger laptop cn work? You've been rosak for quite a long time, you put too much stress on me tau! & suddenly you're okay? Bagus juga lah, save duit aku, heeh! So whats next ey? oh suhaimi, well yesterday he give me 3 missed call, 2 morning msgs..terus syp..aku pun syp je..aku malas nak layankan budak ni perangai yang tak pernah tentu, cm biasa juga kan? then magh he called ask why i keep quiet? Why ey? Aku benci kao lah bodo! Aku bingit dengan kau paham! Tu pun aku letak, but i told him what i feel..den i went to wash my smelly toilet, ah kau, berus mcm nak rak terus mandi sekali..then, i try to cool myself down. I know suhaimi is trying hard to change to what i expect, like when fight, ckp whats bothering you, settle on tt spot rather than sleep it off, and etc..i cant deny tt he's been doing this nearly to one mth after we fight tt day? Yes, this is the longest change he made, alhamdullilah, so i asked myself it wont hurt me right to just give in too? So i called, and i tell him tt im sad because so and so, and i realise tt actually ive been making a scene because he's not gonna be there for my birthday, and its really something tt i hate. I want suhaimi badly, stoopid work! I know tt this is the first time you're not celebrating it with me, but then last yr sucks and i was hoping you can make up for this. But then..i just want a simple day with you and only you. Id care if there was no cake or present, i just want you, i just want to be happy with you on 23rd october, that's it. Gosh, im selfish. :'( ive been stressing him too. Im trying to come to terms with this, he promised tt he will be the first one to wished me and we will go out on sunday. Pape lah, =.= Aku dpat hadiah ape ey tahun ni..heehe, tk sabar juga. :) oh yeah fri im going to esplanade with the girls in the family except along. We're going to watch tt theatre called mata hati, psl jawa2..haha mcm aku ckp, "Di mana ada gamelan, disitu lah aku ada." wohooo!