Lalala~Chey happy nampak aku nari? Haaha, tu yang scary part too! It reminds me of my last year birthday, i was v happy but in the end, i got to know something v v v v bad that hurts me so much, but that was in 2009, and i hope GOD show me mercy this time! "Im begging you on mercy!'' Chey Chey! Well, it's not yet 23rd but i've received alots of wishes oredi now from MSN,Tagged and stuff, best nyer! Happy lah juga. Selalunya bila nak dekat birthday aku, aku mesti mood swing rabak gila babi, its more to the emo side, amira should knw this better, but now, i realise that things are not what i imagine it to be. I got my family always, no matter what, i know they'll surely celebrate it because in MOHAMAD's family, a birthday is a must celebrate tau! i know, best kn! This is the time, when you can get what you wish for, so i hope what i wished for come true! Tsk! Aku tahu, aku mmg tak tahu malu, heeh! 21 ey? Wah dah tua lah aku ni, bukan belasan tahun lagi, dah 20an, bila mahathir ckp, eh aini meaning kau akan kahwin tak lama lagi, i was like what? Me? No, i cannot see myself yet being a wife or whatever, cos there's alot of things i really want to do, i want to enjoy before i really settle down. There's more to life, and turning 21 is just the beginning! (: Im proud of myself, really am when i look at all these 20 years that i've struggled through, i guess i deserve a pat on my shoulders, -pat pat- but beside all these happiness, there's few things that saddens me. Suhaimi is working on my birthday and he cnt get leave, he promised to be the FIRST person to wished me, date me on mon and tues, and buy me something including write me a love letter, so better eh! kalau tak, aku buka langkah! I've always adore at couples who can celebrate birthday together, so far ive celebrated my birthday twice with him, the first one i remember he bought me a psp because i mention it on my blog, we too went camping and swimming. Last year, he came to my sister's house and take good care of me and ryan, i was v happy last year, until news bout him caught me. It was hard, because i was shattering inside and yet people had to sing me a bdae song, imagine what i was feeling, i wanted to cry but i remind myself not to. Truthly, i dont want to celebrate my birthday this year, but again, what reasons should i come up with to my family? Lagipun, i deserve this kn?kn? Besides suhaimi, 23rd isnt my birthday alone, its about someone. :'( I know he wldnt wished me, it's okay. Would he remember? Enuff with all tt sad story! hoho. Well, for this 21, i hope that i will be a better person, more to the matured side, i want to be independant, be able to do stuff that i cannot or afraid to do. Yes, presents is a must, but besides all these, what i really want is to be happy on my birthday, you know the feeling that you get when your loved ones remember, your family, bestfriends. If you asked me what a perfect birthday would be, i would say with my family,gfs and boyf in it. That would be it. Cos these 3 are the main source why im still here today, till then. (: