Hi everyone, it's already the 2nd of october huh? So fast. It means 21 more days to my birthday. Looking forward for it? No. I've decided that on that day, i decide to go MIA. I just wanna be alone, idn if i have to buy a cake for myself, or sing a song for myself, eat by myself or whatever, as long as i'm alone. I have no mood to celebrate it at all, but i don't want to be so selfish to myself. I deserve this, at least for myself. I don't know if i'm okay, but at least im feeling a little much better after talking to a best friend, at least i get half of my pain out, and that has lessen for me a bit. So to that you know who, thanks for listening yea. (: I'm still in a misery state. Alot has been going on lately in my life, that i dn even know where to start. Family, Rship, Education has really been taking a toll on my life, and it sucks the whole lot energy from me. I feel like im a dead zombie, walking around pleasing people other than myself. But all in return i get is .... Im tired, totally tired, still dont know what i want, and still figuring out how to do this and that. Did i tell you that these few days, ive been bumping someone? Yes, suhaimi's ex, the one that he two timed me. Yes, and i have to face this 3 days straight infront of my face. :'( how things has been going with him? From bad to more worse. I shall not elaborate on this, i shall spare all of you with these f sad story from mine, atleast if i can't be happy, i shall make you happy. (: Well, on the bright side, im gonna bring ryan out tmr, because amira wanna send present directly to her "bf" house at jrg, and we missed ryan like hell, so we cld bring ryan to IMM also. Ryan is my only lifesaver, i hope he makes me happy. Spare aunty from being naughty kay ryan? Just make aunty feel loved. & Promise aunty when you grow up, dont be a heartbreaker.