Gosh, im sorry for nglecting you my blog, it's because too much things is happening right now, and i've been trying to sleep early because that's the only way i guess to keep me more motivate to go to school! (: Haahaa. Senang cakap, aku slalu gi skola kekurangan tido lah, habis concentrate level, haprak habes sey. That's why these few days, ive been trying to get as many hours of sleep, and alhamdullilah, im doing fine. How am i? Erm, if i say, i'm okay..I would be lying. I prefer saying im average, in between. I'm trying so hard to look at the brighter side, and i hope im doing fine right now. So lemme summarise, whatever that happens to me these few days ayte? Idn when the maid's coming, or idn if we really have no maid this time, =_=' seriously my house just can't do without a maid, boleh tu boleh lah, but then..I tahu, you know. heehes. & oh well, let just say these few days, bus and mrt trips knock some sense to me. I just realised that im a nature person, when i see pokok, langit,laut or whatever..I would feel calm, and then, the matured side of me, would knock on my brain and say,"WAKE UP!" or this and that. & finally then, i would then get the big picture. Like, i know, i can't stop people's mouth from blabbering stupid things bout me, things that are gonna hurt me or aint true bout me. Yes, im a v sensitive person, and i get hurt v v easily, but then, i realised, why must all these remarks should be affecting me, No one knows the real me. What i do, or what i am, cuma aku je yang tao phm, and no one have NO RIGHTS to bring me down. NO ONE, yeah mark that! Rather than, i brood or cry over those stupid things, i rather prove to them, and show them that what i am capable of, yes that's the true spirit! & Yeah, one more thing, i always thought im not strong, but infact i am really strg, if i look what ive gone thru these 21 years of my life here. And for that, i deserve a pat on my back. :D Im trying, trying to be positive. Life is too short, to brood over things that are just a nuisance..I want to make my life usefull, enjoyable, so that when im gone, i have nothing to regret. Last but not least, my rship is like on a rollercoster, and for now, i guess we're ontop, and i hope we could stay like this forever, but i know its impossible. There's too many things that are hurting me in this rship, but after that all cried out session by myself, i'll try as much as what i have left nw. LAST BUT NOT LEAST, taking this opportunity, to ucapkan salam takziah for Cik Wiyah's family, yes my buruans. :'( All day long, i wished it was just a dream, but i know its real. Another sudden death, another great person, who has just passed away today. I always remember you as someone who is bubbly,loving,happy despite of what you're facing. I alr treated you like my own grandad, and losing you is seriously a great loss. I would miss hearing your voice, or seeing you ard in the house, especially infront of the house. I know, you would be in a gd place. I hope GOD would forgive your sins. Al-fateha. :'(((

Kenapa jadi org, tkleh tgk org lain bahagia? Takleh ke kau tompang gembira sekali tgk org lain tgh happy? Knapa nak jadi kpo? Nak hasut2 org, Nak hina2 org, Nk buat2 org pakai ilmu2 tak senonoh? Kenapa dengki sangat? Haish. Semua manusia takde yang sempurna, apa yang kita ada, hanyalah sementara. Secantik mana, Seburuk mana, kita tetap milik tuhan. Kat mata tuhan, semua manusia sama je, tkde kurang, tkde lebih, so who are you then? Tkpelah,utk org yang terkena, banyaklah bersabar, ni semua dugaan dan cubaan darinya.

I've learned that, by giving me these test, is a sign of GOD's love for me. I know he cares, and i know he loves me. I'm thankful for all of these, no matter how hard it is, i thanked you GOD. Really i do. :')