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September 4, 2010 / 2:15 AM
You people must be amazed at how committed i am to blogging right? Yeah, i spend most of the time, blogging my life story or daily life. If it was a diary, i would be lazy to update as i hate writing. I must say that today is really really HOT! Betol2 mencabar keimanan aku, chey! Tapi, aku tetap bertahan, untuk memperjuangkan..erm, memperjuangkan..Entahlah! Haaha. Today, i go here and there, so im drained out like hell just nw and the first thing i did when buka is to togok air. Aku pun dpt rasakan yg aku dah nak dekat datang lampu Red, so maybe dhet's why haus cm nak mampx! Ni pun, baru habis buat kuih, 2 jenis lagi. Besok last, selepas tu aku nak beralih arah, kemas-kemas. (: Raya is like in 6 More days, TAK PERCAYA! sungguh aku tak percaya.
Apart from that, i'm sad. From the moment i wake up till nw. If you read my prev post you should know why. Other than dhet, i went to msg suhaimi and told himself, that how in the hell his ex find her way to find me, and pls tell her that to stop just adding me. There's no point, i just dont want to be fake, i've gone thru alot, and this both people has no idea what i have went thru.When i teraccepted her, she was toking bout one of her ex, has started contacting her back, and she has been getting this prvt calls, suhaimi's phone house is prvt, is there any possibilities..i dn. :'( i just dont wanna noe, and when i asked him, he said firmly that No, that wasnt him.But, i still have trust issue with this boy, so i didnt really bother much because i was already aching. So i just hang up, and after a long ignorant, he called me, trying to make things better. But how could i? I hate the fact that he always try to forget the issues that we're facing and act as if we're okay, and we shld not talk bout it, when communication is the key to a sucessful rship. So i told him, that i didnt want to talk to him, till im okay. So he asked me why i never reply to his msg? Why must i? Why must i always have to be the one who nak kena give in or be the water in this rship. Im a girl, not a boy. Im tired, always trying to be the glue that sticks our rship together.I thought, even if i told you so, you would check on me, if im okay. Or call me even you know i told you not to. Youve been my boyf for so many years, and yet you still dont know what i want or what i truly mean? Ive been trying so hard not to look at couples, because it will only fill sadness inside me, but i just can't. I just can't help look at dem, and imagine it was you and me.
Yes, indeed im angry at you for everything and everything that you've done to me. But, you know something suhaimi. No matter how much pain ive always carried within me all these years, you have a special place in my heart. :'(
You people must be amazed at how committed i am to blogging right? Yeah, i spend most of the time, blogging my life story or daily life. If it was a diary, i would be lazy to update as i hate writing. I must say that today is really really HOT! Betol2 mencabar keimanan aku, chey! Tapi, aku tetap bertahan, untuk memperjuangkan..erm, memperjuangkan..Entahlah! Haaha. Today, i go here and there, so im drained out like hell just nw and the first thing i did when buka is to togok air. Aku pun dpt rasakan yg aku dah nak dekat datang lampu Red, so maybe dhet's why haus cm nak mampx! Ni pun, baru habis buat kuih, 2 jenis lagi. Besok last, selepas tu aku nak beralih arah, kemas-kemas. (: Raya is like in 6 More days, TAK PERCAYA! sungguh aku tak percaya.