.
September 19, 2010 / 3:39 AM
Wait! tkyah nak reblog, haaha. Sorry lah ni dari tumblr i, i take the image because it says exactly what im feeling right now. Ok ladies, lemme ask something, is there someone in your life, that has made a great huge impact on you or your life? Someone that is no longer in your life, but you still think of him at times? Raise up your hands, uh-uh, yea-yea. I know, because i feel that too. There's someone, in my past that i missed so much that tears are starting to flow down my eyes. This has been always a sensitive issue for me, whenever i think, reminisce something bout him, i always get all emotional. I don't know why, but maybe it has been too long for me, that i've put a brave front, that i've always thought i'm strong to overcome these feelings, but i know im always defeated by these. He wasn't the first one i met, but surely he was the first one who taught me, bout what love really means. I used to remember, and ive always remember all the little details bout him, about those times when we're still together, and how much i took them for granted, thinking that he's always gonna stay and i shouldnt be worry. Maybe, i'm someone and something that he's ashamed of having in his life or past, idn but i must be? I too remembered, that eventhough we went our seperate ways, we could still be friends, and we could chat anything under the sun, or even msg during special occasion. Yes, i've never denied that i've never forget him or even stop loving him. You might be laughing at me, but yes i do still cry bout this every now and then. I mean, you endure this for years and years, contain all this bottled feelings that you wished that you could tell him atleast to make yourself feel better, but you can't. Missing someone isn't that easy,am i right. It's not that i don't moved on, i've got suhaimi and he's the 1st longest boyfriend that i had after i break up with this guy right here, and this shows how much im progressing. Its just that something, are just meant for you to remember, that you would bring till the end of time. I used to see you in and out of rship, and whenever im aware that you're down, i always prayed to GOD, that he would let you have your way. But since you were committed to someone else, you stop being friends with me at all, that sometimes it hurts me. I dont knw if being friends with me was wrong, but i would still love to be something in your life, something that you could rely on, and that is F R I E N D S. but finally i catch the hint, that i wasn't needed and maybe, i'm just someone that you really hated or disgust the most, and so i tried to moved on, but funny you know, each time i tried, each time it will ALWAYS get back to you! ALWAYS! that it gets me mad. How am i supposed to be moved on, when my networks know you, have connections with you? How can i stop thinking bout you when my own boyfriend stays in the same hometown with you? There's alot more, but these is the few things tt makes me mad. Its not that i wanted someone frm your hometwn, but it just happen, you know?
Actually ive longed know you got fb, but i didnt add you up because you didnt make an effort to add me up. But when you add me up after i told you to get well from your accident, i was shocked and abit of happy too. I dont ask much from you, i know that no matter what, i can't compete with whatever girls you ever had before. But i would like you to know that, you've always been special. I know, this would be like an ass blogging about someone's boyf but i just need to get it out from my chest, and i hope you feel me. No matter what, im glad and content to see where you are now, knowing youre in a good hand of someone. I know that there is no one could love you like she would. She's very lucky, indeed. Very. I've never ever forget you in my prayers. I figure it out that if i love you, i should let it go. I wish you all the best in life, wherever you are.
Incase you don't know, I'm not doing so fine. (: So whenever its 23 oct, think of me. When you play bejeweled and saw my score and face and you feel like competing my score, think of me. Just think of me.
Ladies, if you face some kind like this,i salute you! (:
Wait! tkyah nak reblog, haaha. Sorry lah ni dari tumblr i, i take the image because it says exactly what im feeling right now. Ok ladies, lemme ask something, is there someone in your life, that has made a great huge impact on you or your life? Someone that is no longer in your life, but you still think of him at times? Raise up your hands, uh-uh, yea-yea. I know, because i feel that too. There's someone, in my past that i missed so much that tears are starting to flow down my eyes. This has been always a sensitive issue for me, whenever i think, reminisce something bout him, i always get all emotional. I don't know why, but maybe it has been too long for me, that i've put a brave front, that i've always thought i'm strong to overcome these feelings, but i know im always defeated by these. He wasn't the first one i met, but surely he was the first one who taught me, bout what love really means. I used to remember, and ive always remember all the little details bout him, about those times when we're still together, and how much i took them for granted, thinking that he's always gonna stay and i shouldnt be worry. Maybe, i'm someone and something that he's ashamed of having in his life or past, idn but i must be? I too remembered, that eventhough we went our seperate ways, we could still be friends, and we could chat anything under the sun, or even msg during special occasion. Yes, i've never denied that i've never forget him or even stop loving him. You might be laughing at me, but yes i do still cry bout this every now and then. I mean, you endure this for years and years, contain all this bottled feelings that you wished that you could tell him atleast to make yourself feel better, but you can't. Missing someone isn't that easy,am i right. It's not that i don't moved on, i've got suhaimi and he's the 1st longest boyfriend that i had after i break up with this guy right here, and this shows how much im progressing. Its just that something, are just meant for you to remember, that you would bring till the end of time. I used to see you in and out of rship, and whenever im aware that you're down, i always prayed to GOD, that he would let you have your way. But since you were committed to someone else, you stop being friends with me at all, that sometimes it hurts me. I dont knw if being friends with me was wrong, but i would still love to be something in your life, something that you could rely on, and that is F R I E N D S. but finally i catch the hint, that i wasn't needed and maybe, i'm just someone that you really hated or disgust the most, and so i tried to moved on, but funny you know, each time i tried, each time it will ALWAYS get back to you! ALWAYS! that it gets me mad. How am i supposed to be moved on, when my networks know you, have connections with you? How can i stop thinking bout you when my own boyfriend stays in the same hometown with you? There's alot more, but these is the few things tt makes me mad. Its not that i wanted someone frm your hometwn, but it just happen, you know?