Sigh, :'( today is such a..F up day? Maybe. I wake up early today, as i wanted to bid my maid goodbye. But the moment i wake up, she's gone. I don't know if this good for us or not, but im sad that each time, whenever we are close to a maid, she has to be send home because of circumstances. Im not siding either my mom or my maid, because both has their own err. But then, i think one of them is too much. That's okay but then, why can't she like tell her decision to us, i know that this is all her money, but i have the right too, to know what's going on here, than left in the dark. It's not fair. & then, with her drastic actions, i wouldn't want to put under alot of stress, cos i already had enough of what im having now. Dont expect me to do the housework, i can do what's mine, but for others, neh no. I already have felt how it feels to do this all, and its sucky and everytime its because of her drastic actions. Im just angry, angry because that why cant she see it clearly or listen to what others have to say. Well, today was supposed to be jalan raya with my friends. Believe it or not, im already in my baju kurung hitam. I was waiting a fren to signal me that she's reaching soon, so while waiting i was reading the newspaper when they all come back from sending bakyu home, so one of this !@#$ wear something like mine, so i asked her, why is she wearing mine? And with an attitude, she said,"Sorry eh, ni aku punya." ok fine lah. Aku baca balik..Den since im wearing my 2nd sis clothes, she looked at me, so i told her, what?I sms you oredi..Then she say, if you can wear mine, why cant she wear urs. I was like what? Aku ingatkan tu aku punya, dah lah. Then yadayadayada..That !@#$ membebel sendiri kat atas pekik2. Dah terang2 kau pekik2 sebut2 nama aku, bila aku naik confront dia, dia ckp dia tak, sial peh pompan habis nama kau sebut, yg tak tahu semua nak extra. Eh please eh, siapa yg attitude ngn aku, kau dah duduk kn kaki aku smlm,bila aku pekik kau buat bodoh. PUKI ah ko! mcm biasa lah, semua slh kn aku..dia nak pekik2 besarkn hal, so aku dah malas nak berbuih aku ambik beg pun blah lah duduk bawa blk, but still my friend havent reached, i was holding on my tears, i dont want to ruin my make up but then when suhaimi called, it just flowed down. Tu lagi satu sial..Then asked amira to teman me and bring me tissue. I want so much to go, but i have no mood, i dont want to breakdown, im in a fragile situation right now. Im ashamed, ashamed of my life that im leading, and people have no idea how sucky it is to be in like this sucky situation. Ive been so much stress lately, and these fckin ppl had to add more to it. I wish i could just die right there and then. I was hungry like hell, so we headed to pasar bulat KFC. & now, i can see that someone is doing chores, and i know nanti dia yg sendiri mengamuk gamuk sendiri, so lebih baik aku blah pun cantik!

DEAR GOD, WHY ME? WHY ALWAYS IT MUST BE ME. :'( IM TIRED. I JUST CAN'T ENDURE THIS ANYMORE. I CAN'T.