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September 6, 2010 / 12:36 AM
Hi there! Yeah you? Have you been reading my blog? You must have noticed tht these past few days, i've been down because the issues that ive been facing with suhaimi. Yes i agree my other half is an EGO, IRRITATING, DUMBASS, F JERK who dosen't appreciate or know how to make things better, but i just can't find myself hating him, like always how i mention or when i cursed him. We've been together nearly 3yrs, and i don't see why i won't love him like i do, eventhough he's the main reason why my eyes are like Kungfu Panda now, heehs. Mata je ok! Haaaha. Alah Kungfu Panda pun cute juga pe, kn ryan? Ohh Ryan is my anak sedara btw, he's a big fan of kungfu panda. Back to the point, and i realise, im not the only one who is stuck in a mess like this, there's many girls out there are facing the same thing, some are even more worst, im thankful atleast when i curse, or ask him to call, or whatever, he's willingly to do it. I just dont get it, we love each other but we keep fighting and fighting, :( i just dont know what to do bout it anymore, kdg2 nak juga jumpa pakar nasihat for rship, tapi ntahlah. Skrg kita dah okay..besok we're going to geylang,dia nak beli capal and songkok. Idn, but it's kekok everytime when we mit after a fight, i always miss those times where we fight, and he would just hug me when i keep quiet only, :'( Those were the days. Suhaimi Oh Suhaimi, =_='
Other than that, i know i've to break someone's heart on the other hand. Like 23456 times. It feels like ive been using him, he's always there for me, but yet..I just can't. We've been together and know for so long, ive always looked up to you as a best friend. Yes, you're indeed a nice guy really, sometimes you really tempt me. But, i just love my boyf more no matter how hurt i am. I dont know how to push you away, ive tried in a gd and bad way, but still you..i just dont know what you see in me, but i hope and i know you'll find these in some other girls who are much more better than me. I dont know what feelings im carrying for you,but im someone else gf, and i hope you respect as the way it is. Friends?
He don't wanna leave, and you don't wanna go.
