This gonna be quite a long post, so if you find its a hassle, just exit. Yours truly here is feeling down, so hence this post, so please be understanding. I don't know if i'm tired or what that makes me feel like this, i've got weird temperament so maybe it's one of the possibilities why. On the bright side, today was the last lesson for the term, here i am for 2 weeks of study break, which means NO to and fro from Tamp to Queenstwn everyday. I can stay at home, sleep and wake up sesuka hati, but ive to study hard because study law is sure a difficult module. A friend of mine who remoduled, told me that nearly half of her prev class failed that they need to remodule. Damn, i can't afford to waste anymore time or money Again. When to Geylang today with all my girlfriends, and i'm super tired with being in a crowd and walking here and there. Going down to memory lane, wasn't that easy that i thought it would be, i tried to be oblivious but i can't. :'( is that why im kinda down down down right nw? & what makes me more angry is that, my boyf didnt even care when i say i was sad. I dont know if he's busy with MJ12 or otp with some otha ladies. =_=' i just dont wanna noe. I feel like crying right now, but mahathir is beside me now, so im trying to hold back these tears of mine.

Some people are so blessed and lucky, and im still figuring it out, am i? Yes, im born completed with 2 hands and legs and eyes. I can hear, smell, talk. But i dont know what, but i feel something is missing. When i was in geylang, i saw many happy couples, who look good together. I can see them happy, but thinking bout me and suhaimi suddenly makes me sad. I'm tired. Tired of pretending, and tired to be okay when my friend asked about him or us. Our r'ship is surely a weird one, a different from others that i know and i see. I longed for what others has, but then..there's many things in my head and heart, that longed to be said. But, he just wouldn't have the time to listen i guess. Is my love really blind? Should i just leave this nearly 29 months of our love? Idn, but i can sense day to day, my love is lessen. Its scary, but true this love flame is burning out. He dosen't really care bout my feelings, am i right? Why am i still sticking around, and put a frown on my face. Argh, i really need to do something to my hair. Haha, yeah when im stress rbt aku jadi mangsa, i would cut it short. But this time, im thinking of perming,i nak highlight juga, but pk2 jgn ler. Nak PERMMMMM! IM STRESSED OUT.

Oh yeah, wanna say thanks to Aini, for giving me the perfume. (: